H A P P I N E S S
Or more specifically, what causes my happiness.
When you realize that there's something wrong in your life, it's always painful...yet oh so necessary.
People can be chameleons. Some pick up people's laughs, or accents. Others start making jokes like those people or even change their standards around certain people. Being a chameleon isn't necessarily bad, it just has to be for the right motives. Once in a while if I hang around a person a lot, I'll pick up their laugh. This can be annoying, but it's not bad.
It becomes a problem when you're changing yourself to be more like that person in hopes that they'll be your friend or some such nonsense. I learned quickly (and painfully) in high school that I shouldn't change myself in order to fit into the group of people that I thought I needed as friends.
But, I realized that I have a more serious changeling problem. My attitude and mood. Especially when it concerns negativity and criticism.
This self discovery kind of shocked me. Because, if you know me, you know that I'm NOT the most sensitive person in the world. In fact, unless you have a justifiable, logical problem...I will most likely NOT care and tell you to get over yourself. (which, is another thing I need to work on..haha)
Friends....are very important to me. Luckily, I have some of the most AMAZING friends in the whole wide world. (you know who you are ) But friends have a big sway on my mood. If the people I care about most are unhappy, then I am. Of course, this isn't entirely a bad thing. But, I'm just aware that it can affect me TOO much. Like I said before, if they're particularly negative or critical, then I'm like that too. (and my sarcastic, realist attitudes kick in too and just blows it all out of proportion. lol)
I'm an extrovert, so I naturally am energized by people...and tend to get deflated when I'm not around friends.
Alright, this post isn't making quite as much sense as I had originally intended. Neither is it going in the direction I intended either. But that's okay.
If you don't read the rest of this post, READ THIS. (please)
My conclusion to all of the lengthy and wordy above, is that I don't find my happiness in Christ.
Isaiah 58:14 says to "find your joy in the LORD." Nehemiah 8:10 says "do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength"
It is my never ending prayer to more fully rely on Christ, for both myself and for you my dear (few) readers.
Ruthie
