I've been a bit obsessed with this song recently, which is fine because it makes me quite happy.
Which brings me to the topic of this post.
H A P P I N E S S
Or more specifically, what causes my happiness.
When you realize that there's something wrong in your life, it's always painful...yet oh so necessary.
People can be chameleons. Some pick up people's laughs, or accents. Others start making jokes like those people or even change their standards around certain people. Being a chameleon isn't necessarily bad, it just has to be for the right motives. Once in a while if I hang around a person a lot, I'll pick up their laugh. This can be annoying, but it's not bad.
It becomes a problem when you're changing yourself to be more like that person in hopes that they'll be your friend or some such nonsense. I learned quickly (and painfully) in high school that I shouldn't change myself in order to fit into the group of people that I thought I needed as friends.
But, I realized that I have a more serious changeling problem. My attitude and mood. Especially when it concerns negativity and criticism.
This self discovery kind of shocked me. Because, if you know me, you know that I'm NOT the most sensitive person in the world. In fact, unless you have a justifiable, logical problem...I will most likely NOT care and tell you to get over yourself. (which, is another thing I need to work on..haha)
Friends....are very important to me. Luckily, I have some of the most AMAZING friends in the whole wide world. (you know who you are ) But friends have a big sway on my mood. If the people I care about most are unhappy, then I am. Of course, this isn't entirely a bad thing. But, I'm just aware that it can affect me TOO much. Like I said before, if they're particularly negative or critical, then I'm like that too. (and my sarcastic, realist attitudes kick in too and just blows it all out of proportion. lol)
I'm an extrovert, so I naturally am energized by people...and tend to get deflated when I'm not around friends.
Alright, this post isn't making quite as much sense as I had originally intended. Neither is it going in the direction I intended either. But that's okay.
If you don't read the rest of this post, READ THIS. (please)
My conclusion to all of the lengthy and wordy above, is that I don't find my happiness in Christ.
Isaiah 58:14 says to "find your joy in the LORD." Nehemiah 8:10 says "do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength" It is my never ending prayer to more fully rely on Christ, for both myself and for you my dear (few) readers.
I do, to a point, agree with that statement. But, I also think that that we should acknowledge that advancements in technology and start to embrace different ways of doing things.
I'm addicted to Instagram.
But why? Well, one I can incessantly post pictures and it's accepted. ;P
But secondly, because it's easy and accessible.
Even though I'm a photographer, I don't always want to lug around my chunky DSLR, but it's easy to whip out your phone.
The argument used to be "well, cell phone pictures are always crappy". Not the case anymore, with cell phone picture quality getting better, chances are that you can actually take a good picture.
I love being able to take unique pictures of the most everyday things easily.
It made me think about how much I want to travel and photograph the world.
UGH. (exasperated sigh)
I seriously want to look into going on a missions trip. Last time I went on one I was 13 and I went to Honduras. That was when my photography bug had just hit, but I pretty much just took snapshots of flowers and such.
It sounds kind of selfish looking back on this post to say "oh, let's go on a mission's trip so I can take pictures". Well, no I just would love to use my "skill" (meager as it is) as a photographer to document the world and to make connections with people.
As Americans we're...well, a little narcissistic. We're really quite used to getting our picture taken....but a lot of people, especially in third world countries, don't often get their picture taken.
Often simple joy can result from the smallest acts, like chatting with somebody you just met, getting to know them enough to take their picture then see their eyes light up when you show it to them.
I don't know. I just think I'd like that. :)
Sorry for not posting more....hopefully I shall change that this fall. For now though, I'm going to get some sleep.